This post was written specifically for the #AuthorToolboxBlogHop.
It’s hard to believe that this is a) the last AuthorToolbox post for this year, and b) that we’ve been doing the Blog Hop for the better part of 2 years.
With that in mind, for this I’m going to talk about something that tends to come to my mind a lot, especially when writing these AuthorToolbox posts. Here goes.
I really don’t know what I’m doing and I’m constantly waiting for someone to point it out.
Impostor syndrome, as defined on its Wikipedia entry, is a pattern of thinking in which someone doubts their accomplishments and has a persistent fear of being exposed as a fraud.
Does this sound familiar?
While I can have moments of feeling like this at work (which I hate, because I am actually pretty good at it) or at home (anything DIY-related), I don’t think anything brings it out of me as much as this blog does. And I think it can be divided into two specific areas; advice and sharing.
By advice, I mean primarily posts like AuthorToolbox or reviews. These typically involve a thought process that can be distilled down to “Who am I to be telling you how to write or what to read?”. Especially with the former. I’ve tried to circumvent that by saying that no-one can tell you how to write, all they can do is tell you how they write. It’s something that I believe is true, particularly given how many different approaches and methods I’ve heard described, but I can’t help feeling that I originally formed the notion as a defense should I be told that whatever advice I was trying to give didn’t work.
In terms of sharing, any time I post something I’ve written, whether it’s a completed story or just a few lines in response to a prompt on Twitter, I have that voice in my head telling me it’s rubbish and that people are rightly going to think so. Now, it’s entirely possible, even probable, that someone is going to that that. No-one can please everyone, after all. But the difference here is I think everyone is going to think like that. Even with people who have been supportive (many and more thanks to those of you) who ask when I might have a book available, my first thoughts are nearly always panic.
I honestly don’t know that this falls into the right category for an AuthorToolbox post and that it contains something useful for those of you reading it. Maybe if you’ve found yourself having similar thoughts to what I’ve described, it will help to know that you’re not alone. Maybe if I had some advice (there’s that word again) on how to deal with it, it would be better.
But right now I don’t. All I can say is that it’s a reality for a lot of people and how to get past it is most likely going to be a individual process.
I’m still working on mine.
Don’t forget to read the other Author Toolbox blogs, just click the icon below.