Here we are at the start of a new year, a new decade, so it’s inevitable that I’ll be thinking about what I want to happen for the next 12 months.
I’m also still trying to process some of the things I’ve learned recently. Without going into too much detail, especially since a lot of it is very personal, toward the end of last year I finally realized how bad my depression had become and how poor a job I was doing of trying to put a brave face on things. I do think I have made some good progress in this area since then but it is a journey and I feel like there’s still a lot let to go.
But back to the point of this; what do I want to happen this year? I think the main thing is to find the joy in writing again.
I’m not sure it’s been a result of my depression or my own expectations of myself, but I feel like I’ve been neglecting my writing because it’s felt like I couldn’t write anything without second guessing everything and that was just sapping any enjoyment out of it. And if I can’t enjoy writing it, how is anyone going to enjoy reading it?
Lately I’ve been listening to podcasts, watching Youtube videos and reading pieces, trying to learn tips and techniques to improve my writing. It’s been beneficial but it does predispose that I’m actively writing in the first place.
(On a side note, it has made me realize how much I need to go back and revise the first few chapters of book 1, at the very least.)
Ultimately, I want end this year having become a better writer than I am just now. And the first step in that journey has to be learning how to enjoy myself again.
PS. It seems I’ve strayed away from my original intent to set some goals & priorities for the coming year. I’ll do that in another post.